sleeeep

when grant was first born he wouldn't sleep unless he was in somebody's arms. day or night. i've never actually felt like i was going insane until that period of my life. it's weird what a lack of sleep can do to you. and you don't really have a choice, you aren't allowed to give in and go insane because you have a new babe to care for.

slowly i was able to start putting him right next to me in bed without holding him in my arms and he'd stay asleep a bit longer. to be safe matt would sleep on the floor or in the library and i'd have grant in his place in bed. but still, naps during the day had to be in someones arms.

then i started the "training" thing. in one day he was able to sleep in his own bed, right by us in the bedroom. and he's been just perfect at night, slowly making his way to sleeping 6+ hours. but naps wouldn't last long if i put him down on his own. for just a little bit training helped there, but i think it just took time for him to realize "oh my mom will come and get me when i wake up."

i love this stage, he is playing and then silently he starts telling me he's tired, adding little noises here and there. just the sweetest little faces. so i pick him up to cuddle and he's out. and now he knows i'll be back when he wakes up and it's alright if i put him down.

it's a beautiful thing to be able to get things done. i love having a clean home and actually food. i swear i went the whole 9 months without being able to cook even a week straight. the sick stage lasted way too long, then a small period of ok time til the aches started and i would rather nap than stand in the kitchen. it's soooo nice to get things done again! i'm starting to see why people do this more than once. i guess he can have siblings one day.